Nothing! It was stupid, she just got uptight over nothing.
[He turns away, throwing his arms out at his sides.]
We were talking about her friend who showed back up, and then it turned to Kaz, the guy she was seeing but not seeing when I got here. He was a possessive dick, but he still wouldn't date her, and I didn't see why she'd put up with that.
[He whirls around to jab a finger at Bobby.]
And don't compare it to what we've g - had. What we had. I didn't try to put any claim on her when she had none on me.
[He drops his arm and turns away, pacing irritably.]
But then it all turned into how everyone she's dated has broken up with her, if they've wanted to be with her at all, and how she's not good enough - fuck's sake, it's not about that. I told her over and over again it wasn't about that. So finally I just said she could leave if I wasn't enough for her without some stupid title attached to me, and she did.
[His smirk is a pale shadow of its usual self when he looks back over his shoulder.]
It doesn't matter. [His hands clench into fists at his sides.] She's obsessed with being with someone, it's sick. It'll come down to this every time, no matter how many "arguments" we make up from.
[So why is that upsetting him? Why can't he just let her go, if that's the case?]
[His fists clench even tighter, carving small half-moons of blood into his palms; he can feel his skin trying to heal instantly, but doesn't move his fingers to allow it.]
Don't play stupid. That's worse than getting smug.
I'm not choosing! [His voice rises sharply, and he dearly longs for a candle to throw at the wall, but settles for smacking it with a flattened palm instead. There's the slightest smudge of blood left behind when his arm drops.] I said it all along, I'm not choosing. No one changes the rules on me.
[ After a moment, he joins John, sitting on the other end of the couch. There's a pause, before: ]
What about Oswin? [ Honestly, he's still upset with both of them for what happened earlier, but this conversation's too important to dwell on that now. ]
Why d'you think I said I'm not choosing? Oswin's still - [Fuck. There's no way to talk around this.] - she still means a lot to me. But Euri gets so much that Oswin has to work to understand. We have the same damage.
[ Yeah, but Euri will only push you further into that hatred you feel, he thinks. For the moment, he stays quiet to give John time to further express his emotions. ]
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[He turns away, throwing his arms out at his sides.]
We were talking about her friend who showed back up, and then it turned to Kaz, the guy she was seeing but not seeing when I got here. He was a possessive dick, but he still wouldn't date her, and I didn't see why she'd put up with that.
[He whirls around to jab a finger at Bobby.]
And don't compare it to what we've g - had. What we had. I didn't try to put any claim on her when she had none on me.
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Didn't you consider that it might be a sensitive topic for her?
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[He drops his arm and turns away, pacing irritably.]
But then it all turned into how everyone she's dated has broken up with her, if they've wanted to be with her at all, and how she's not good enough - fuck's sake, it's not about that. I told her over and over again it wasn't about that. So finally I just said she could leave if I wasn't enough for her without some stupid title attached to me, and she did.
[His smirk is a pale shadow of its usual self when he looks back over his shoulder.]
Big surprise, huh?
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She was upset. It's just an argument. We've had a million of 'em.
I'm sure you'll make up soon enough.
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[So why is that upsetting him? Why can't he just let her go, if that's the case?]
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Don't play stupid. That's worse than getting smug.
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Calm down. I'm not asking you to choose.
But if this really is a deal breaker for both of you, you're gonna have to accept it.
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No.
[This is it. He's not letting someone walk away on him. It's the closest he'll probably get to an admission that she actually matters.]
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What's your plan? Somehow make her change her mind?
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[His mocking sneer is as weak as his earlier smirk.]
I don't fucking know, dude. I have no idea.
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He gestures to the couch with a glance. ]
Sit down.
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What about Oswin? [ Honestly, he's still upset with both of them for what happened earlier, but this conversation's too important to dwell on that now. ]
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